Kitten

How can someone that gives you so much joy totally devastates you in a blink of an eye?

How can you move on feeling guilty of the loss of a loved one? I can’t begin to understand or accept the fact that you are not here anymore. I can’t believe I let you down, I let everyone down. I am so heart broken even though I only knew you for four days, I feel like I can’t think straight, things keep reminiscing in my head, I still hear your cry, I can’t believe you are gone. I am so sorry I let you down, you were my everything Bean even though we only knew each other for such a short time. I am so sorry, I can’t forgive myself for what happened to you. You were supposed to get better; you were supposed to be here and be mine to keep company to Mouser. You are gone and I can’t believe it; I can’t believe the pain I feel and the guilt that still comes with it. I tried everything I could to help you, and it still wasn’t enough. Wasn’t meant to be maybe? I am so heartbroken. I can’t even imagine this would happen. I am so sorry, I am sorry, I failed you. This is one of the hardest moments I had in my life and it’s so crazy to say that because I knew you for such a short time. It’s like torture. Is this what hell is like? I can’t believe it. I will never forget you. I will forever have a space for you in my heart. I still can’t believe you are gone; I just can’t process it and maybe that’s my punishment for not doing enough. You were more than enough; I will always love you my little Bean….